I am now at a worst stage ever. I feel like pulling out my back bone and put it to rest until the due date and to be honest, i really wanna get this over with as quick as possible. I just couldn't stand it any longer. My feet are swollen, i can't stand standing for a long time, i couldn't walk properly anymore, couldn't sleep, i feel the heaviness in me, going to the loo every 10 minutes is not what i dream of, my pelvic bone cracks every now and then, i have rashes, etc. Oh, my baby please come out on the exact date ok

I have a week to go before the due date but my midwives gives bub more time to stay in my tummy up until 42nd weeks only.

Speaking of bub, we're nearly crossing out all the list for the newcomers. The only thing we're waiting now is bub's first stroller




p/s:

Dear baby,
Mommy & daddy is keening to meet you.
You're mommy's & daddy's bundle of joy.
You're mommy's & daddy's precious gift from Allah the Almighty.
Please come out, come out.
Call me out, whenever you want and i'll be there for you.
You make our life whole again.

I can't wait to get my hands on bub's red stokke. After considering so many opts, i opt for red because if we're buying a new car later, it'll be in blue colour. I love red but it's a no-no for me if having everything in red. We have been eyeing on few cars with blue colour like Lancer VRX, and Evo X...let Rif decide his colour for once in a while. Now my cousin is head over heel over Stokke too, i told her to get one too so that her bub, Aiden can go on a ride with my bub later. They love it in red colour too since it's suites well with their Evo 7.

Anyway, i dreamt about Allahyarham atuk yesterday morning (yes, i woke up late on Sunday), i hugged and kissed him. He told me he's happy now, more than ever and will keep coming to us from time to time. He was at my parents place in Sentul at that time and was about to go somewhere else. If he's really happy, then i'm happy for him. Truly. Al-fatihah.

If not because of the residency status, we would have own our very first Honday City today. I wish i could use my name for the loan but unfortunately i can't since i'm out of work for the time being. It's not that i'm crazy about City but we have no other choice other than the Mitsubishi Lancer VRX. The only i look for in a car is, the have an iPod compatibility. Unlike Rif, he's looking for something that has paddle shift and so on.

I got an email from my sis showing Allahyarham Atuk's resting place. It made me sad seeing it but i know i have to keep strong not just for him but for bub too.

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Since i'm on leave, i have finished watching "My Girl" again with Rif last night. I told him God had shown him his fate earlier when he watched it alone in KL. There's KIA cars in it, which he used to work with, and there were SsangYong and Land Rover too. Which coincidently is what he does for living now. There's another jaguar car being used in that drama so i guess he'll be working for Jaguar later...who knows...it might come true. Amin.

I told him to work with Land Rover for as long as he could and later he could make a demand from Land Rover just like what his supervisor did, moving from Dubai to Perth because he were the best in Australia with more than 10 years experiences and earned big cash. And maybe Rif could demand to move from here to KL while earning Aussie dollar, isn't that great. Amin again.



p/s: met my GP last Tuesday and he told me the baby still hasn't engaged and most probably bun's will be out of the oven a little later than expected.