Mom and Auntie Nora had left for KL on Tuesday early morning. Did i tell you this is my mom's second time coming here after Adrian's born? My mom was worried about him, about his condition and so she came again, while Auntie Nora came to accompany my mom and urut me as well. It was heaven!

Today's Adrian's 1 month birthday. Only a month ago i gave birth to a cute baby boy, how time fly so fast. I remember everything from the beginning until the end, about how  i only able to hold him for seconds only since i was being taken away immediately to the theatre room. About how i weren't able to feed him the day i gave birth to him. About how longing i was for him when i was in the theatre room. About being so worried that my life could have just ended like that. About being worried leaving my two men behind. But that was my past, my history, our history.


Today also, hospital had discharged Adrian again for the 3rd time after admitting last Monday (21/12/09) due to tummy bug. He had diarrhea, and vomiting back all the milk i fed him eventhough he's hungry. At first, we bring him to the hospital when we thought his temperature was a bit high when i checked, 37.2 celcius. I didn't know which is high and which is not but doctors told me, 37.2 celcius is still normal. Doctor had butchered him 4 times to put in the IV at his hand because either they couldn't find the urat or there's no blood coming out, he had too much drip put in him. I felt so helpless watching him crying in pain and i saw my mom also cried. I spent 2 nights at the hospital, sleeping beside him. I didn't get a chance to send my mom to the airport. In fact, the 21st was my last day seeing her in here eventhough her flights was on the 22nd.

Since Adrian's back at home for the 3rd time, i really really really hope he won't be admitting in hospital ever again. He had gone through so much, he started his life in a hard way and i'm sure he'll grow up to be a strong man insideout.

Some of you must have no idea why my lil Adrian was admitted to hospital twice and had surgeries twice. He had been confirmed by surgeons that he was diagnosed with Hirschsprung disease.

"Hirschsprung (HURSH-sprung) disease, or HD, is a disease of the large intestine.

 The large intestine is also sometimes called the colon. The word bowel can refer to the large and small intestines. HD usually occurs in children. It causes constipation, which means that bowel movements are difficult. Some children with HD can't have bowel movements at all. The stool creates a blockage in the intestine."

The first operation was done but surgeons couldn't find anything wrong with him because they said our intestine can usually tangled up in a minute, and later it's back to its original position. Adrian was making a good progress after it, eating as usual and passing stool too. A day after i bring him home, he started showing the earlier symtoms he had before like loss appetite, sluggishness, constipation and so on. We were worried because he didn't show any sickness nor crying at all, in fact he just slept for quite some time. The day he was re-admitted again (Sunday the 6th) because he vomited greenish mucus after i breastfed him. I knew this isn't right, and straight away bring him to the hospital emergency department without even taking a shower. We were right, there was something wrong with him.

Surgeon done a couple bowel biopsy on Adrian and found out the two nerve cells he took from Adrian's bowel is missing, and that's is why Adrian is not opening his bowel properly and that makes his tummy very full and he ended up not eating and loss weight.

Second surgery (Pull through surgery) was done on the 9th of December, three days after re-admitted from 9 am to 2 pm. It was a long, major surgery, i was alone and scared as Rif couldn't take leave anymore. But surgeons told us, the surgery was done successfully, they took out the "not-working" intestine and re-attached the intestine back. They told us they cut out about 12cm long, and that's quite short for a baby that age. 

Adrian's appetite now are getting better and better, alhamdulillah. He passes stool and urine like normal kid would do, isn't that great! I just have to be alert and cautious on everything now. He's so precious and fragile, i wouldn't want him to suffer anything anymore.

P/s: Anyway, we also got a gift for Adrian on 10th of December, a blue car.

Rif received a good news yesterday morning, his supervisor called him to his room and told him about raising his pay and conforming his employment status in Barbagallo after 3 months probation. Alhamdulillah! Isn't it nice of him to give Rif a bonus for this month's pay because of us having a baby.

On the other hand, Adrian will undergo his second surgery first things in the morning tomorrow somewhere around 8.30 - 9 that takes about 3 hours or so. I am praying so that my lil Adrian will be ok as this surgery is rather major than the first one. I am praying so that the surgery will gone smoothly and makes everything okay for him and he'll never have to suffer again. As a mother, i am praying for his safety. Amin. Mommy will be waiting for you Adrian outside the door.